WE ARE A WEBSITE
  • Home
  • Issue 9: Brilliant/Buckets 2018
    • Editors’ Note
    • Natalie Cheung
    • Holly Day
    • Margaret Devadason
    • John Grey
    • James Croal Jackson
    • Brian Khoo
    • Edward Koay
    • John Lee
    • Koshika Sandrasagra
    • Ian C Smith
    • Shilpa Dikshit Thapliyal
    • Thao Nhi Do
    • ​Samuel Caleb Wee (prose)
    • Samuel Caleb Wee (poetry)
  • 8.3: "Un-gendering Home" Special
    • Editor's Note
    • Vicky Chong
    • Elizabeth Hepzibah Goh
    • Michelle Chua
    • Surinder Kaur
    • Pallavi Narayan
    • Clara Mok
    • Priyanka Srivastava
    • Vanessa Yeo
  • Submit
  • The Team
  • Bonus Features
  • Archive
    • Issue 1: Scorching/Sweltering 2015 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Ang Ming Wei
      • Rodrigo Dela Peña, Jr. + Jau Goh
      • Sebastian Ernst
      • Jau Goh
      • Tse Hao Guang
      • Krystle Huan
      • Helen Palmer
      • Euginia Tan
    • Issue 2: Hazy/Humid 2015 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Troy Cabida
      • Charmaine Chan
      • Deborah Chow
      • Brendan Goh + Tan Hai Han
      • Tammy Ho Lai-Ming
      • Fiona Kain
      • Lina Lee
      • H Ng
      • Tan Xiang Yeow
    • Issue 3: Pouring/Parching 2016 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Bisuketto Studio/Charmian Ong
      • Alton Melvar M Dapanas
      • Benedicta J. Foo
      • Matthew James Friday
      • Elizabeth Gan
      • Riyoo Kim
      • Mulyana
      • Jeremy Richey
      • Shaista Tayabali
      • Andrew Yuen
    • Issue 4: Thunder/Tempest 2016 >
      • Editor's Note
      • Steph Dogfoot
      • Sandys Hocombe + Rene Daigle (Beagles Comics)
      • Lydia Lam
      • See Wern Hao
      • Ruth Tang
      • Hazel Wu
      • Nancy Zhang
      • Wong Wen Pu
    • Issue 5: Muggy/Monsoon 2016 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Sandra Arnold
      • Jennifer Anne Champion
      • Alex Chow
      • Lawdenmarc Decamora
      • Eun Go
      • Goh Li Sian
      • Sean Francis Han
      • Eileen Lian
      • Ros Lin
      • Ng Yuan Siang
      • Yurina Rahmanisa
      • G David Schwartz
      • Lia Varbanova
    • Issue 6: Searing/Sticky 2017 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Michaela Anchan
      • Paul Beckman
      • Deborah Chow
      • Jacqueline Goh
      • Trivia Goh
      • Gerline Lim
      • Max Pasakorn
      • Dan Tan
      • Verena Tay
      • Judith Tse
      • David Wong Hsien Ming
      • Nicole Yeo
    • 6.5: Special Issue >
      • My Mother's Menagerie
      • Bagdogra Airport
      • Invisible
      • Matter, Mostly Dark Matter, and the Rest is Energy
    • Issue 7: Tropical/Torrid >
      • Editors' Note
      • Daniel de Culla
      • Matthew James Friday
      • Iman Fahim Hameed
      • Joshua Ip
      • David Koo
      • Iris N. Schwartz
      • Adeline Tan (Mightyellow)
      • Athena Tan
      • Buz Walker-Teach
      • Ryan Thorpe
    • 7.5: Election Issue >
      • Editors' Note
      • Gary Beck
      • Sarah Bigham
      • Celia Hauw
      • Chris Rodriguez
      • Helen Lee Tart
      • Jonathan Yip
    • Issue 8: Stormy/Sodden 2017 >
      • Editors' Note
      • Nolcha Fox
      • Mitchell Krockmalnik Grabois
      • Kyle Hemmings
      • Marcus Ong
      • Rodrigo Dela Peña, Jr.
      • Ian C Smith
      • Jim Zola

Troy Cabida

The One Easy Guy

easy like the morning
after hard drinking, he is alien
to the spilt beer lingering in his lips.
sparking up another with fingers still wet from last night,
inebriation can do only so much
to numb the truth sobriety slaps the face,

the truth he would see at the surface
as the poison wears down,
the truth he would later forget
as the cycle begins again:
they’d come round, once again hungry for his greens,
his words say no, maybe that’s the truth,
but his lips will still follow habit and wrap another one up.

but the hungry for high won’t be round him
no more
once the green stops giving,
the rogue, used up stubs colour the earth
dead brown
and he becomes thirsty for more toiling.

and at that point
the sunlight won’t come round no more
to turn light bulbs on – it’s run out of batteries.


Drifter

A former soul mate from school looked at me twice
after finding me on the bus; she had to rub her eyes
because she couldn’t believe I really was that weirdo
she pulled everywhere in school, wearing clunky glasses, an awkward gait,
Monday bed head on a Friday.

That day she saw me clad as a canvas piece,
blank, white and black: none of the familiar things,
and in turn I saw a stranger, an unfamiliar face, a puzzle piece
trying to fit in an already finished painting.

All the rumours she heard were true, I confirm:
from leaving my party self shivering,
I choose to be sober, inhaling moonlight and silent airs,
cleansing myself from green smoke, brown liquid,
devoid of a broken heart,
to really ignoring your friend request because you’re no longer good for me.
Slowly forgetting old faces isn’t because of old scars
but in favour of space for future wounds
that’ll help me like how yours have before,

so shame on me ‘cause I’m no longer your throwaway toy? Shame on you
for thinking I’m still in high school. This is my stop, by the way


#OnBeing20

there’s something admittedly heavy
about the words we let our mouth set free, this planet’s fetishes for
keeping up with the people we love and
keeping us from the person we want to become,

but despite all the weight, my feather light soul chooses to float,
to float towards bus trips and bubble tea, away from
clock-in chains, underground hate, unrequited family dramas;
I refuse them entry to hold me down

because all I need at this point
is a Friend for every finger, good words that stick like honey
and a bright yellow citrine Sun in my palm,
radiating strength to let me do
what rises my sun in the morning
and keep my stars shining at night,
and if my lack of fucks about the gas bills
offends you so then I suggest you open the door
and let me fly bye



Troy Cabida (b. 1995) is a Filipino writer from London. His work has appeared on Thought Collection Publishing, WORK and Pinched. He’s written for Miracle, Instazine21 and has edited for Siblíní Journal, Thought Notebook, and 30 Days Dry by Eric Shoemaker. Catch him blogging at www.troycabida.wordpress.com.
Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.